RED

Each time I sit on the train on the way back from a match the feeling of just how important this all is literally floods over me and all I want to do is write it down.. to try and articulate it.

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My Dad played for Liverpool Football Club from 1975 to 1981. 

"Jimmy Case is best remembered for a spectacular FA Cup final goal and a deserved reputation as one of football's genuine hard men. But that does scant justice to a career that covered more than 700 appearances for 7 league clubs and did not end until he retired, through injury, at the age of 41. Raised on Merseyside, Jimmy began at his beloved Liverpool, becoming a key player in the all-conquering team of the late 1970s alongside stars like Kevin Keegan, John Toshack, Ray Clemence, Phil Thompson, Kenny Dalglish and his two great mates, Tommy Smith and Ray Kennedy. At Anfield, where he was signed by Bill Shankly and guided by Bob Paisley, Jimmy won a boxful of medals: four league titles, three European cups plus a host of other domestic honours which tell the truth about Jimmy Case - that he had much more than a tough tackle and a ferocious shot."

European Cup - Final - Liverpool v Borussia (that's my Dad on the left)

European Cup - Final - Liverpool v Borussia (that's my Dad on the left)

I was born in Liverpool in 1981 and that same year he left Liverpool and was transferred down South.. first to Brighton and then on to Southampton which is where I grew up.  If I'm honest.. I didn't pay too much attention to his career growing up.  It was his job and although I’m immensely proud of what he achieved.. It was just part and parcel of our family life.  At matches as a kid.. all the player's kids would be looked after in the player's lounge and then we would have to wait patiently for Dad to shower after the game and then sign autographs before we could head to our local chinese restaurant for dinner.  That was our Saturdays.  I also remember being allowed to be taken out of school for our family holiday as the football season didn't fit very well with the normal school holidays. As I got older I started hanging out with my friends, dating boys.. and I do remember one lad, on finding out who my Dad was, said that I would 'make an awesome girlfriend'.. :/ 

It's funny what memories stick out.  I remember my Grandad having a Tesco bag in the spare room full of old newspaper clippings of Dad playing..  I remember looking at photos of my Mum and Dad's wedding, them both stood outside the church with a bunch of fans all crowding round them, all come to see them get married.  I remember the few times we would get to watch the match.. my sister with a bovril and me with a chicken pie shouting 'GO ON DAD!' at the top of our lungs..

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These are all really lovely memories and I know that when I actually sit down and think about it.. I am ridiculously proud to be a Case.  So much so that when I married Pete I didn't want to lose it.  For me I guess it was so much more than a surname.  It has so much history.. and the weird thing is that a lot of that history, I wasn't even around for.. it was before my time.. but blimey.. I still so strongly feel that it belongs to me..

A couple of years ago my Dad wrote his autobiography.  Reading the first few chapters, Dad reliving the very early days when he was first signed to Liverpool.. playing his first match.. how he felt at that time.  It was like finding your Parent's diary.. hearing his 19 year old self talking.  It just really made me think..  

That era was so special.

Magical even.

And I felt such an urge to step in to it.  But I guess.. as a photographer ‘stepping in to it’ for me meant more than just reading up on the history of what the team achieved.  I was interested in more than that.  

I was interested in the fans.

In how it felt..

The game has changed so dramatically.  All the die hard fans, ones that have supported the club for 30, 40, 50 years.. it’s all changed so much for them.  It's a huge business now and it feels like this particular time in football’s history is pretty poignant.  It’s the last remaining generation that have a foot in the club all the way back when you could scale the fence.. when the players were local lads from the next street.. when it felt like one big family.  

So much is changing.  The old cafes around the ground are soon to be knocked down as developers have bought them up.. slowly it’s all disappearing.  You walk around the ground and it’s the 'tourist' fans the club wants.. they spend the money on merchandise.  It's feels like now it's about tv deals and foreign investments.  I guess the corporate machine is now such a huge part of the game..

So I feel the need to tell their story.  The story of Liverpool football club's family.. of my family.  The fans that have given so much.. who have travelled to every home and away match, year in year out.. who sing YNWA at the top of their voices before every game.. who's whole family over three, four generations are red.. who, when I meet them, talk to me as if if they know my Dad.. (thick Scouse accent).. 'Oh yeah.. how is your Dad?'.. 'Say hello to Jimmy for me'.. 'Oh we love our Jimmy'.. 'Tell him to get his boots back on'..

For me.. without ever living there, Liverpool.. and Liverpool football club is my home and this project is just as much about me as it is the people I’m photographing.  I’m not entirely sure where the project is heading but right now I’m just so happy to keep surrounding myself with such a huge part of my history.. a part that I didn't even realise I was missing..

Success..

Quality time with Pete and Frank

Work I'm engaged, challenged and excited about

Being honest

Communicating well

Working with couples that get us

Not scared of change

Giving back

Exposing ourselves to different art forms, industries, cultures, opinions

Giving ourselves time to create and collaborate

Being confident and accepting of the journey of being an artist

Being ok with sometimes being a crap.. partner, friend, parent, photographer, business owner.. adult..

Quality time with friends and family

Looking after our health - physically and mentally

Understanding that we are all have the same feelings.. even if we don't always show it

Spreading love and kindness

 

What is success to you?

 

 

Image by Chris Barber

Polaroid love..

Recently I've been revisiting my Polaroid collection and trying to work out what on earth I can do with them!?! Prints? Postcards? Greetings Cards???

These are just a few personal ones that I love..

2016.. film for days..

This is probably my favourite selection from all three 2016 round ups.. (you can find part one and part two here)

We shoot film for both work and personal on a mixture of cameras.. Mamiya 645, Polaroid SX70, Contax T2, Instax Wide, Canon Ae1, Disposables, Diana, Yashica Mat 124.. and a variety of film stocks.. (mainly Portra 400, Ektar 100, Kodak 400TX)

I'm not sure I can even describe how it feels shooting film.

I think if you were to open up my heart.. this is what you'd find..

Anna + John // Anglesey

Anna and John had the most wonderful celebration in Anglesey surrounded by their friends and family.  We love weddings that take all their guests somewhere on an adventure, somewhere where they might not have been before as they always have such a wonderful community feel.. everyone getting stuck in.. everyone getting to know each other.. it becomes one huge family and celebrations usually seep over to days before and after the wedding..

Anna and John were married at the incredible St Cwyfan’s church which is only accessible on foot when the tide is out.. and then they had a beautiful blessing and dinner at the wonderful Tros yr afon..

The whole day was pretty much perfect.. the food was amazing (of course).. both ceremonies were wonderfully personal and one of my favourite things to see at weddings is when the whole family get married.  Anna and John have a little boy, Dylan.. a similar age to Frank and it's always so lovely to watch a whole family make a commitment. I just love that Dylan will be in his Mummy and Daddy's wedding photos.. and it's always such a privilege to take them..

Here's a little taster from the day and if you want to see more you can find the full wedding here..

If you want to see more images from the day you can find the full wedding here..

Birmingham Markets..

I've been wanting to head down to the Markets for a while now.. not only to be able to play around with shooting film.. but also to try and push myself to actually ask people if I can take their portrait.  It's something that I think, as Wedding Photographers we tend to not have to face (too much).. as the majority of the time we're in an environment where that's actually why we're there in the first place.  But just asking the general public.. it's definitely a different ball game and No's come just as frequently as Yes's.. so it felt good to take myself out of my comfort zone.  Also there's something simply wonderful about the Markets.. the vendors calling out their bargains.. the hustle and bustle.. the total ordinary.. it just makes you feel good being amongst it all.

This is also the first roll of film that I developed myself.. (with a lot of help from the wonderful Dan from somecities.  It's something that I've always wanted to do, and kinda can't beleive I haven't done.. and there is something deeply satisfying seeing through the whole process from shooting to scanning.  I feel that me and these images have been through a lot together and, quite like I expect it feels when you grow something from seed and it ends up on your plate.. these are most definitely my first 'carrots'.. and I'm super duper proud of them..

Shot with my Canon Ae1 on Kodak 400TX.